Wednesday, April 3, 2013

On Debtors

One thing about me is that I hate chasing after people who owe me money or borrowed anything of mine. I mean I really really REALLY hate it. For one, it's an exercise in futility for the most part. It has been my experience that people who don't want to pay up or return my stuff are surprisingly good at hiding. Calls and texts go unanswered. A visit to their house reveals they never lived there or did but moved out. Online stalking can only yield so much information. Being a guerrilla or an illegal immigrant could be great alternative career options for these people.

Secondly, the emotional toll that it takes on me is high. I feel so degraded, chasing someone for something that is mine. I guess this must be how a wife who loves her husband feels like when said husband has an affair. At the same time, I am filled with indignation; what is mine is mine, and should be mine. In the background, like pesky static, is guilt. Guilt that I am thinking ill of the debtor when he/she could have a legitimate reason for keeping what's mine. Maybe a relative fell ill. Maybe it's for someone's education. Or to pay off another debt. See? So many feelings.

Lastly, I believe in the power of karma. Yes, I'm born Catholic, but I still believe that what goes around, comes around. It may not be now, but sooner or later, I believe And I still believe that these are only material things; I will earn them back. It's not so with the debtor, though. It always turns out to be a very expensive lesson, but I'd rather that the debtor is not in my life anymore than let him/her stay and screw me over.

So where does that leave me? Well, obviously unpaid and unsatisfied, but at the same time with a clean conscience and one less negative person in my life. All in all, not a bad outcome.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013


I started building this blog wanting to write out my opinions. I guess I wasn't really thinking that time, because I ended up being busy with schoolwork. It escaped me that it was the last month of the semester, and of course it was going to be hectic. I ended up wanting so much to write stuff, but I can't, because homework always trumped everything else.

And now, it's vacation time, and schoolwork is a thing of the past. And now, there's nothing I want to write about. Sure, there are national issues, like Sabah, and the RH bill. National pastimes, like Kris Aquino and James Yap. And myriad issues still, like homosexuality and suicide. But I just can't bear to write about any of them. Don't get me wrong, I have opinions on each and every one of these. It's just that every time I try to type it down, I get blocked. I'm not sure why. I can tweet about it, but I can't complete an article about it. It's almost a physical force stopping me from typing. Maybe it's the fact that I'm not really a writer. Maybe it's because there are so many more non-writers out there who are wittier and more intelligent than I am. Maybe it's because I realized that opinions are too personal.

So I'm wondering whether to continue this blog or just merrily trot along.


Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Who am I?

Let me start off by saying this: I'm just an opinionated girl, sitting in front of a laptop, telling the world what she thinks of it.

Why I started this blog

I wanted to share my thoughts, however random they may be. It may be cowardly to hide behind anonymity, but I find it rather liberating, actually. Saying what you want to say is a freedom we should always take advantage of, and I welcome reactions, positive or negative, to my posts. The thing is, I want the reactions to be about my opinions, not about me. That's where the anonymity comes in.

A note of caution to the reader and to myself: I can never please everybody. But I will try my hardest not to intentionally hurt or offend anyone.

This blog is primarily for myself; my outlet, my hobby, my soapbox. But if someone, anyone, is moved or made to think by my words, then that is a bonus I would very much like to have.

What to expect from this blog

opinions on anything and everything
feelings about anything and everything
pop culture references
song lyrics
movie and TV quotes